Breakfast date was fine. He woke up at 6:45am just for me and said that "[I make] waking up early worth it". The best part? He had no school today.
Yeah, he woke up at 6:45am just to be able to spend a little less than 2 hours with me...with a 2-hr transit ahead of him, no less.
If that doesn't earn him brownie points, I don't know what would.
On a different note, shit hit the fucking fan today.
Regardless of how sweet he is or how much he claims he likes me (which, looking through his actions, is entirely believable), he still has feelings for one of his old crushes.
Yep. Yep. Yep. Yep. Fuck.
He told me that he had given up on her and moved on before (I had asked him about a picture I saw of them together before since I was curious and he had told me they never dated, he just liked her).
But yesterday, this girl decided to get drunk and told him that she used to have feelings for him.
Obviously with this new information, his head just screwed the fuck up. Understandable.
My head was also fucked up when I found out that Dat-Bod-Doe thought of our "relationship" as something a little more serious than I had thought he did. (I always thought that maybe he thought of me as some casual summer thing, I couldn't believe that he truly, possibly, had feelings for me)
I had found that out the Friday that just passed and my mind wandered. It wondered if I had done the right thing and if we could have been something so much more had I stayed with him.
Thankfully some sense came to me and I shrugged everything off.
That being said, I can understand how this new guy is feeling. I can imagine what he's going through and it really sucks.
He told me that he was angry at himself for having leftover feelings for this girl and that he felt terrible about it.
He told me that he liked me very much but he just couldn't let go of this girl without knowing if they could ever be something more.
Ouch.
It's like I'm caught between a Rachel and Ross dynamic where I'm just that outsider shit disturber that the audience hates but sympathizes for because how could she know how perfect these two were for each other?
This new guy agreed with one of Rachel's lines that she tells Ross and insinuated that it applied to him and the girl: "It's never off the table."
I'm numb. I'm blank. I'm lost. I don't know.
He told me that we were on the edge of becoming a thing but that this just wasn't the right time.
Right.
Where have I heard "this isn't the right time" before? Oh right, when I was in my first relationship. I used it to describe why we didn't work out.
Just my luck.
They're meeting tomorrow to discuss things since she told him she needed to tell him something. Oh yay.
Fuck my love life.
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