Dabbling

Quick Aside and Update:

I've decided to not answer Pseudo-Prince's Facebook message and ended up deleting our conversation in its entirety.  Yup, that's right, all my love notes and declarations of love are gone forever.

Why didn't I do this sooner?  ...I didn't know you could delete messages.  In my defense, this seems to be a new feature because when I tried to delete the thread before, it would just end up being archived and that was that.

Anyway, point is that I'm completely, 150% DONE and OVER Pseudo-Prince and none of his charming ways or words could ever win me back.

It feels so good to know that I truly mean that and that I recognize that he was full of shit and probably all talk.  And let's be real, maybe he's trying to come back to me to see if he can still manipulate me or something.

Who knows?  Maybe he is a nice person, but his sweet talking was definitely suspicious.

Aside #2

One thing that I realized about Pseudo-Prince messaging me is that it actually gave me a glimpse at how I would have reacted had an old flame contacted me again once I told myself that I had gotten over them.

Where I'm getting at with this is just that...the guy I was seeing before who was still in love with that girl left me thinking "What would I do if something similar happened to me?  Would I stay with my current boyfriend/person I'm seeing or would old feelings resurface and I wouldn't be able to fight them?"

Interestingly, I reacted to Pseudo-Prince's message the way people give that "Bitch what the fuck is this??" look to other people.  So now I know that if I were in the same position as that other guy did with that girl, then I would still not hurt the person I'm currently dating since it isn't fair.

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So I'm going on two dates today with two different guys.  Both are from Tinder, obviously.  Where else would I ever meet someone who would want to date me?  Let's be real here.  Considering my luck with guys, I really don't know when or where I'll ever actually meet someone who'd ask me out and I'd be semi-compatible with.  (Do note that I'm not really downgrading myself or anything, it's just that it's really, REALLY hard to find people).

That aside, let's talk about these boys, hehe.

The first guy I'm seeing is 26 years old and we're going to name him SpaceGuy because we both bonded over space, duh.  I really like that he's the geeky type in this way and he also plays video games.  We both play Portal 2 and agreed that we should totally play it together.  That has yet to happen and I would really love it if my damn internet would function properly so that I could totally bond with SpaceGuy, gawd.

It's really early to say much about him but I do worry that if I do end up choosing to date this guy for realsies (as in, exclusively), I really hope that he talks to me more often because right now, we hardly talk.  We can hold a conversation, ish but I do admit that I spend most of my time talking to the guy I'm going to have dinner with.

SpaceGuy is sweet and a huge cutie.  I really appreciated the fact that he wishes me good night even if we haven't spoken in like an hour or two.  Basically, he'd tell me that he wanted to finish up some homework and then head to bed and I'd be like 'Okay! :)" and that would be that.

I would think that the conversation was dropped (And for a good reason, don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining about this or anything) and I thought that we'd talk the next day...but NOPE.

About an hour or two later, he'd tell me that he was going to bed and wishes me good night!  I think that that is one of the cutest things ever.  It's just nice to know that they still remember you before bed and stuff, you know?

We also exchanged a bunch of cute geeky pickup lines that I really enjoyed and I hope he did too.

The guy I'm seeing for dinner is going to be named SelfieGuy because he wanted us to exchange selfies at least once every day.  I've actually already gone on a date with SelfieGuy before so this dinner thing is going to be our second date.

SelfieGuy seems to be pretty decent as well and he's also 28 years old.  I used to think that 28 was way too old for me to date but I decided "Why not?" when I swiped on it and after we matched, he started the conversation in a really fun way.  We seem to be on the same wavelength in that he's got a certain type of humor that only those who go on Reddit have.  (SpaceGuy also goes on Reddit, just an FYI).

He invited me over to his place for the second date and obviously we all know that sometimes there are underlying sexual implications that come with such an invitation.  Just to be safe, I told him that I wasn't comfortable fooling around just yet and that I was virgin, yada yada, we all know this drill at this point.

Some would argue that I shouldn't bring such a heavy topic up so early in the dating game, but speaking from experience, I think it's a pretty good idea.

First of all, it lets the guy know that we're not actually going to be having sex anytime soon and if he has a problem with that, we can both move on without being too attached to each other.

Second of all, should the guy say that he's fine with holding off sex for an indeterminate amount of time, it's nice to know that they like your personality so much that they're willing to wait for you.  It's interesting.

After telling him all of this, needless to say, this guy was taken way, WAY aback since he has a relatively high sex drive.  He said that it was pretty much an incompatibility with us but he was willing to see if we'd work out.

I guess we'll see how things pan out.

I have yet to tell SpaceGuy the sex thing but it doesn't look like we're heading down that road yet, and I'm not sure if there is even any road for us at all so I guess we'll also see with him!

Note: This post was written yesterday (Friday) and continued a little bit today (Saturday) post-dates.