If you were to tell younger me that I went on 2 dates with 2 different guys on the same day, I would have thought that older me was some sort of social butterfly movie star. Which, come on, I kind of am, let's be real.
Joking aside, once I got back from both of my dates, I had a lot of things to think about, some of which included "Should I continue seeing these two people at the same time?", "Should I even bother with SelfieGuy?", and more.
Up first we have SpaceGuy and let me tell you, he's such a friendly sweetheart. He bought my drink and a brioche for us to share. I really loved the dynamic we had and the only word that comes to mind to describe that date is "innocent". It was sweet and moved at a lovely pace.
To contrast it with my first date with SelfieGuy: I kissed SelfieGuy on our first date and we interlocked our fingers around the end of the date. It was nice, I guess but with SpaceGuy, I felt like I really enjoyed the innocence of it all.
I liked that it was still a little uncertain and we were both extremely polite and just...it wasn't crass. With SelfieGuy, we both had very out there personalities and I think we just kinda bantered like comfortable assholes together. It's nice to have that, sure, but I feel like that sort of clicking can come later.
I feel like SelfieGuy might be more arrogant, self-absorbed, entitled, and condescending. Don't get me wrong, we had fun together it's just that those were the vibes I was getting from him. He also carried himself in a certain way that exuded such characteristics and I really didn't want to be around that kind of person.
SpaceGuy, on the other hand, is more cautious (in a shy way, if you know what I mean) and friendly. His vibes were softer and I didn't feel like he was being condescending at all. We shared dreams and thoughts, both of us interested in what the other had to say.
One of the things I was worried about with SpaceGuy was the lack of communication between the both of us. We hardly chatted/texted before our date and I worried that it was going to be really ridiculously awkward. I also worried that should the date go super well and I really liked SpaceGuy, would I be okay with someone who didn't talk to me very often?
I know that kind of thing really killed me when I was with Pseudo-Prince. The constant pining for affection and attention was awful and I dreaded seeing the "Seen" notifications and not getting a reply back.
But then...a miracle happened. SpaceGuy added me on Facebook and suddenly, out of nowhere, he was extremely chatty with me! He's been talking to me nonstop here and there throughout the weekend and I really couldn't be happier!
Oh, I should also mention that SelfieGuy and I have come to a mutual agreement that things between us would not work out since his sex drive is way too high for me and I'm just really not comfortable diving into the whole thing just yet. We wished each other good luck with finding someone who suited our needs and parted ways. It was all very civil and I don't regret letting him go.
My mind is swirling with SpaceGuy's messages and I'm afraid that I've gotten just a liiiiiiittle bit attached. I've gotten a little used to seeing his chat head pop up on my phone screen and now the addiction needs to be fueled very often...oh dear.
I've done so well these past few days in terms of not getting attached but now it saddens me to admit that I'm starting to have dreams and fantasies of spending some of my Christmas break with this guy. Oh no oh no oh no.
I can't get too attached to this guy this soon into the game or I'm just setting my heart up for failure and a world of hurt because I don't even know what this guy is looking for on Tinder.
I should probably ask him what he's looking for soon....probably.....but....I'm having such a nice time talking to him!
Maybe if we talk enough and he enjoys my company, he'll think "Maybe having a relationship with this girl would be the greatest thing that has ever happened to me!!" and we'll be a thing after a couple of dates......maybe....who knows.
A girl can dream, a girl can dream!
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